FINALLY, SOMETHING TO BLAME ME FOR: I TALKED BACK

The following entry contains real life drama that may be offensive to the readers eyes. Veiwer's discression is advised. Just to let you know...I'm "selfabsorbyourself." Actually, I'm pretty proud of my ridiculousness. I got a few good blows in there, if you'll notice. Being that this was my first time ever responding to this regular verbal abuse, I found it quite exhilirating, and, now that I look back at it, it's kind of funny. Honestly, it's all pretty pathetic, and I'm glad this is the only time I'd ever done it, otherwise I'd come across as a complete idiot. Notice how he claims that I'm the one trying to be deep and logical, when really he's the one doing it. OK, grab your bag of popcorn, 'cause it's about to begin! (Need some background info? Well, the last two entries may help, but just to fill you in, we've been something along the lines of dating and going out since the beginning of 2004. You wouldn't BELIEVE how dedicated this guy was. He'd said to me a few days after he wanted to try again "he needed some space to figure things out," but a few days later he, all of the sudden, is infatuated with a dear friend of mine. Needless to say, it's been excruciatingly hard for me to talk to or even LOOK at my OWN friend, who obviously isn't much of a friend, huh? Don't worry, I'm pretty sure this is the LAST time we'll ever talk.)

selfabsorbyourself says:
lolleylou06@yahoo.com
loganogan says:
wtf do you want?
selfabsorbyourself says:
I was just giving you that address
loganogan says:
thanks, but I've had it for quite some time now
loganogan says:
did you have a lovely chat?
selfabsorbyourself says:
Yea? Oh, that's cool, but I've only had it for a week :-/
selfabsorbyourself says:
heh
selfabsorbyourself says:
With who?
loganogan says:
with Lauren
loganogan says:
duh
selfabsorbyourself says:
Heh, sorry, it's late, I guess I'm not thinking...no, not yet, and I'm sure she's was pretty busy tongith and all...
selfabsorbyourself says:
and I'm going out of town all tomorrow and all that...
loganogan says:
awesome
selfabsorbyourself says:
boring
loganogan says:
well I have a pretty little note to send you before you go on your way
selfabsorbyourself says:
you do....
selfabsorbyourself says:
Man, it's too bad I don't have a good feeling about it, though I wouldn't know why that is...
selfabsorbyourself says:
Would you?
selfabsorbyourself says:
Goddamn it Logan, how can you assume so low of me? I haven't done anything, and she's my friend too! She's been my friend just as long as she has you
selfabsorbyourself says:
rs
loganogan says:
I want you to stay the fuck out of this
selfabsorbyourself says:
I am staying the fuck out of this
loganogan says:
I respect you talking to her and straightening out whatever you have to
selfabsorbyourself says:
I don't want to fucking get involved
loganogan says:
but none of this is any of your concern
selfabsorbyourself says:
I know that already
loganogan says:
find something else to ruffle your sheets over
selfabsorbyourself says:
fuck that
loganogan says:
I don't care about what you think or have to say about anything
selfabsorbyourself says:
OK, that's fine with me, I just knew I'd have to tell you and understand that you were absolutely sure before I talked to her
loganogan says:
this isn't just the fucking internet, it's what's in the email that I just accidentally deleted
selfabsorbyourself says:
otherwise you'd think I was going behind your back
selfabsorbyourself says:
so either way, you get pissed off at me
loganogan says:
fuck, just get pissed off at me already and stop bothering me
selfabsorbyourself says:
whaaaaat
selfabsorbyourself says:
But wouldn't you see that as the case as well?
selfabsorbyourself says:
Wouldn't you be pissed if I'd have talked to her about it before I told you?
loganogan says:
I don't give a fuck what you do as long as it has nothing to do with m
loganogan says:
e
selfabsorbyourself says:
But what have I done to you?
loganogan says:
I'm even more sick of being a part of your bullshit than the last time I said I was sick of being a part of your bullshit
selfabsorbyourself says:
No no, you see, THAT'S bullshit DOLL
loganogan says:
nothing...I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore. You just keep proving time and time again what an insane and impossible person to get along with you are
loganogan says:
you're a fucking dumbass
selfabsorbyourself says:
Why do you have to be likle that?
selfabsorbyourself says:
What the hell is your problem Logan!??!
selfabsorbyourself says:
Goddamn it, look at yourself!
loganogan says:
you're a condescending bitch with your retarted "goddamnit look at yourself!" bullshit and your "if you know what I mean, cause you should" and your thinking you can see through people
loganogan says:
fuck off
loganogan says:
you can't see through shit
selfabsorbyourself says:
Either way, I'm loosing friends, and I know that makes you happy and all...I was just being considerate by not leaving you in that the dark
loganogan says:
of course she's not a stand in you fucking asshole
selfabsorbyourself says:
no, that's NOT what I meant
loganogan says:
who do you think you are?
selfabsorbyourself says:
and i told you it wasn't directed towards you
loganogan says:
I don't give a fuck, you have friends, but I am obviously not one of them anymore
loganogan says:
so be concerned with them
selfabsorbyourself says:
i was talking about SATURDAY NIGHT LOGAN
selfabsorbyourself says:
you talked to her, you didn't tell me about that
selfabsorbyourself says:
you didn't tell me the process had already began
loganogan says:
I know it's not directed toward me and it's not an attack, I didn't tell you because I don't want you to be any part of it, or know anything about it that you don't need to know
selfabsorbyourself says:
you told her, YOU TOLD HER HOW YOU FUCKING FELT LOGAN, WHEN ONLY A WEEK BEFORE YOU'D TOLD ME YOU WANTED TO TRY AGAIN
selfabsorbyourself says:
YOU FUCKING BASTARD! GODDAMN YOU!
loganogan says:
I know you think you're just coming to me as a friend, but every attempt you make at that always results in total bullshit, you're fucking insane
selfabsorbyourself says:
No, you're fucking insane, you even went to prom with a lunatic
selfabsorbyourself says:
there? are you happy?
loganogan says:
it was pretty fucking easy to change my mind pretty quickly
selfabsorbyourself says:
there, I'm using your stupid bullshit
selfabsorbyourself says:
now I'm just as pathetic as you are
loganogan says:
even your attitude now only makes it that much easier to realize what a good choice it was for me to completely forget about you
selfabsorbyourself says:
nono, that's you, fuck you
selfabsorbyourself says:
I don't care
selfabsorbyourself says:
I want you to totally forget about me
selfabsorbyourself says:
and have no type of feelings towards me whatsoever
selfabsorbyourself says:
I'm just another face in the crowd
loganogan says:
I ALSO told you that I was at a turning point where I saw myself going in two competely different directions..I just happened to take the RIGHT path..the one that doesn't involve you in any way whatsoever
loganogan says:
I want you to totally stop talking to me
selfabsorbyourself says:
fuck you
loganogan says:
I wanted you to forget about me weeks ago
selfabsorbyourself says:
bastard, block me, i've already had you blocked enough
loganogan says:
shut the fuck up
selfabsorbyourself says:
fuck you
loganogan says:
you fucking dumbass
selfabsorbyourself says:
FUCK.
selfabsorbyourself says:
YOU.
loganogan says:
you're a retard little bitch
selfabsorbyourself says:
Yea, i'm the idiot, and I'm getting all A's
loganogan says:
who has no grasp of reality
loganogan says:
see...more proof of your condescending, egocentric bullshit
selfabsorbyourself says:
I don't care, say what you want, you're shit to me
loganogan says:
GOOd
selfabsorbyourself says:
great
selfabsorbyourself says:
fanfuckingtastic
loganogan says:
now please grant me my wish and SHUT THE FUCK UP
selfabsorbyourself says:
fuck you
selfabsorbyourself says:
Baby
loganogan says:
you are nothing to me
selfabsorbyourself says:
good
loganogan says:
no I"m going to go listen to the voices of the pot demons in my heae
loganogan says:
head
selfabsorbyourself says:
don't ever talk to me again, don't even look at me
loganogan says:
they tell me to do things
selfabsorbyourself says:
good, I hope you do
selfabsorbyourself says:
that would be the best thing for you
selfabsorbyourself says:
so you can forget about anything that ever happened
loganogan says:
you're still talking to me you overdramatic bitch
selfabsorbyourself says:
How does that make you any better than me?>
loganogan says:
rambling on with your pathetic attempts at trying to sound deep or logical
selfabsorbyourself says:
Oh give me a break
loganogan says:
fuck you
selfabsorbyourself says:
fuck you
loganogan says:
you're a competative bitch
selfabsorbyourself says:
FUCK YOU
selfabsorbyourself says:
I am?
loganogan says:
whose only claim is that she's biggest stupid bitch of all
selfabsorbyourself says:
oooo, thanks for clearing that one up, Logan
selfabsorbyourself says:
Wooow, impressive
selfabsorbyourself says:
come on, keep um goin
loganogan says:
well, I'm going to go get a milkshake..have fun sucking your thumb and thinking your stupid bitchy thoughts
selfabsorbyourself says:
maybe you'll get a treat
loganogan says:
your pussy stinks
selfabsorbyourself says:
mmmm
selfabsorbyourself says:
you'd know?
selfabsorbyourself says:
you've never had pussy
selfabsorbyourself says:
so who cares
loganogan says:
well I'll not see ya later
selfabsorbyourself says:
back at ya
loganogan says:
I hope you shoot yourself in the face
loganogan says:
buh bye
selfabsorbyourself says:
Sounds fun
selfabsorbyourself says:
and messy
loganogan says:
just promise me you'll never say another word to me again
selfabsorbyourself says:
Oh geez, here he goes again...
selfabsorbyourself says:
i'll just say fuck you and leave it at that
loganogan says:
well...nevermind that...I really don't care
loganogan says:
fuck off
selfabsorbyourself says:
if you never say another word to me, I won't to you
loganogan says:
fuck off
loganogan says:
fuck off
selfabsorbyourself says:
ppssshhh
selfabsorbyourself says:
O.M.G
loganogan says:
your words are empty
selfabsorbyourself says:
mmmm
selfabsorbyourself says:
juicy
loganogan says:
along with your opinions and any sort of fucked up conviction you ever had
selfabsorbyourself says:
You know, I now see what it's like, it does feel good to be a stupid bitch
selfabsorbyourself says:
I had an operation?
loganogan says:
good, because that's all you'll ever be
selfabsorbyourself says:
How'd you know?
loganogan says:
GOOD RIDDANCE
loganogan says:
BYE
loganogan says:
BYE
selfabsorbyourself says:
pathetic
loganogan says:
BYE
selfabsorbyourself says:
is that all you've got
selfabsorbyourself says:
come ON
selfabsorbyourself says:
*internet battles* wooooooooo
loganogan says:
I'm not wasting anymore time on the biggest waste of time I've ever wasted time on
selfabsorbyourself says:
this should be a sport
loganogan says:
fuck you
selfabsorbyourself says:
wow, i don't care...?
loganogan says:
I'm out
selfabsorbyourself says:
uh huh

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